So in Love

ahhh.. Sean is home...

I was sooo excited for him to get back and he did on Wednesday night (it had been two weeks).. ahh.. I missed him so much...

YES.. I am one of those sappy couples right now.... :)

Wednesday night.. he came straight to where I was. I was at T-street for HS Wednesday nights with CCCLH. I couldn't really greet him other than a hug and a hello and then he was mobbed by all the high schoolers that I love so much.... bummer.. haha.. not that they were excited to see him and love on him.. but that we couldn't just immediately focus on each other.. but thats okay.. after that he came over and we talked and caught up and then I fell asleep and kicked him out when I woke up at 2am.

Thursday.. got off work, when for dinner with his family (well at least his parents and youngest brother-there are 6 of them all together) at SKIMMERS. Then we watched Wipeout which his parents DVR'd from Tuesday (By the way its the funniest show EVER!) then went back to my house and fell asleep at my house watching Batman and talking.

Its so nice that hes back.. but I know he will be gone again soon.. and it will be hard.. so for now.. I am just enjoying being so in Love.

PS I Love Coffee

If you don't know anything about me one of the first things you will find out about me is that I love coffee..

McDonalds Iced Coffee BLACK (for them to NOT put 1000000 creamers in it) and then adding one yourself..

Its sooo perfect for a refreshing treat that still has both the coffee kick AND taste... If you get their iced coffees regular it will be all creamy with no coffee taste (sugar rush) but if you do it my way.. its sooo delicious!

Full Steam Ahead...

Well.. Today is a full week since Sean left on assignment.. He is still gone.. and shouldn't be back for another week ... Yay. I have been pretty darn busy though, and that has helped keep my thoughts from turning into, "I hate my life when Sean isn't around". We have also been able to talk to each other on some nights.. which I really wasn't expecting.. that, and the fact that God has been faithful to keep me joyful have helped me thus far... and I know will continue to help me get through this fire season.

Quick Summary of Last Weeks Events:

Thursday: Movies and Dinner at the Spectrum with my Best Friend

Friday: Meeting with Pastor Steve (Calvary Chapel Foothill Ranch) and Westin to talk about the new College Group, also dinner and 24 hour fitness with Shelley

Saturday: 9am Wedding in Santa Ana, followed by a 6pm wedding in Rancho Capistrano, pics to follow soon (hopefully)

Sunday: Father's Day with the fam - Church, lunch, nap, trip to Montage Resort, and out

Monday: Watching the Bachelorette by myself (sad and pathetic I know)

Tuesday: 24 hour fitness (Step class - which I LOVE) and College Group Bible Study

Horray!!

Seans gone.. and thus begins my Summer

Sean called me this morning around 10:30 (while I was at work) and let me know that their crew had left for a fire... He has only had one other "fire" so far this season and it was an overnighter at Camp Pen. This one however, is in Northern California and he won't be back for a while.. maybe a week... maybe more...

I know I have to get used to this for the next 5 months.. but this is the first one.. so I am sad.. I know that i will get used to it.. and I also know some times will be easier than others.. I hope this will be one of the easier times.. I had a really rough day and then even rougher night last night and due to the fact that he had to be at the camp at 6:30 this morning he couldn't spend some time comforting me and making me feel loved and joyful again ... so that makes this fire a little harder...

But I have a God that can give me all the comfort in the world and that is enough for me.. and if I don't feel like that now.. then I will pray more.. until I do.. God is good and faithful.

Sandwiches, Friends, and Starbucks

Yesterday was awesome! I was able to go to lunch with the beautiful Rachel. We had a great time catching up (it had been a while) and laughing and eating these YUMMY sandwiches at a little place in San Clemente.. Everytime I go there I keep thinking.. I remember these sandwiches being soo good.. but maybe its just because I haven't been here in a while.. NOPE.. still sooooo excellent!

After lunch we walked a couple blocks down to Starbucks.. oohh How I love Starbucks! I ordered, and when we were waiting for my drink they offered us these super cute, mini mint mocha fraps!

I was sooo excited! I remember them having a similar drink a couple years ago.. and I was so sad when they stopped making them.. ANYWAY.... so... we walk outside to go back to my car.. and bam!! Ms. Butterfingers strikes again!!

Bust! I seriously can't tell you how many times I have spilled coffee ALLLL down the front of my shirt in the last two months.. and had to work all day.. and actually the last two times have been when I wore white.. so it was very obvious.. oh well!

Yay! Its Friday!! Here is one of my favorite phone pics of me and Sean.. He doesn't really like to smile big because he thinks that he looks funny.. but I LOVE it because he looks REAL and HAPPY, I love him so much!

McDonald's Makes me Laugh

Yesterday, I got a coupon (from work mail) for a free new, southern style chicken sandwich from McDonald's. I, of course, was excited.. for the free food. and went there today for lunch..

I ordered a sandwich and a side salad (to at least atempt healthy eating--haha) and I got both back and drove off to work to sit and eat at my desk..

Here comes the funny part.. which will be even funnier for me because I don't think you all will be too amussed.. ANYWAY..

The food comes in two bags.. one for the sandwich and one for the salad.. the sandwich bag is of regular porportions and doesn't receive so much as a giggle from me...

The salad bag however...

please note the huge-ness of the bag.. and then .. scroll and please note the pint-sized salad that was in said bag..

I just really thought that it was funny.. and of course.. I love to take pictures of my food.. Happy Hump Day--Wednesday that is :)

Why do we turn our backs on God? Why can't we just do as he asks every single time? Because we have free will.

This is the greatest gift God could give us. If we didn't have it then we would be robots obeying God just because we were programed to. If things were like this there would be no point in the Bible, there would be no point for Christ on the cross. We would simply do God's will every time there was a decision in our life.. no.. there wouldn't even be decisions in our life.. There would only be God's way..

But we don't have a God who says, "Its my way and my way alone." Yes, there is only one way that will get you into Heaven and to be with God forever, but that is not the only option that you have. You can also choose to not be with God. You can choose eternal separation. That is your God-given right.. sometimes I can't quite grasp this. I think, "well, if i was God i think i would have had people love me no matter what.. " "I made them.. this is my right." THANK GOD, our Lord and Savior is not just that.

He loves us so much that he lets us choose.. and that's were you get sinners like me..

Don't get me wrong.. I love God and I try to always put him above all else.. but I fail alllll the live-long day.. and it makes me so frustrated..

I know things would be easier if God just did things for me.. but then there would be no rejoicing when I actually did obey God.. it would just be, "Duh, of course I obeyed God.. I didn't have a choice.. "

I wish I could go back and correct my mistakes.. but the truth, that I am so scared to believe, is that everything happens for a reason and I need to learn from my mistakes.. Yes, I could have done things different, but I didn't.. and if I am going to grow closer to God, then I need to ask for forgiveness, know and believe that God forgives me and LEARN.

I can't tell you how many times I have asked for forgiveness and then gone and done the same thing the next day. I need to change this part of my life.. if I ask for forgiveness and then turn around and do it again, and again.. I need to change. I am not going to magically do the right thing if I don't change.. I need to ask for God to help me, give me his strength to do the right thing.. and I need to constantly be alert. If I can't handle the situation.. don't put myself in the same one next time.. DUH! I have problems with that one a lot :)

Anyway.. I think I wrote this because I want to somehow proclaim this to all.. so that I would be able to be kept accountable.. only problem is I know not to many people read my little blog.. and I think thats why I did write it .. so that I wouldn't have to be kept accountable......Told you I was a sinner..